I drafted an email this week about my dog who ran away (again). The happy-ending story with threads of healing and growth may see the light of an inbox at some point but for now, it seems tone-deaf… and yet oddly related.
Again, is the point.
Again and again and again.
Patterns. Behaviors that run unchecked. Themes or tendencies that cycle through your world with varying degrees of conscious awareness.
Repeat, repeat, repeat.
Paying attention to your patterns is easy money while on a path of self-discovery… If you are mindful enough to do so.
Movement patterns, postural asymmetries, behavioral tendencies, daily habits, or thought loops hold a well of insight for you to tap into.
Not because they need to be deemed good or bad but because they need to be conscious. Otherwise, you’re disconnected from choice.
Leaving you at the mercy of your standard reactions.
Uncommanded reactions can cascade into life lessons you thought you’d cleared, the frustration of not this again, and wasted time on a familiar storyline with predictable plot twists.
A tripwire, keeping you from exploring new territory.
As an evolving human, an upward trajectory into possibility is preferred.
Humanity wants to be liberated through progress not squander in subordinate stagnation.
And yet, collectively, here we are again.
This email is not to air my grievances, have a gun debate, or pretend to have a balm to magically soothe the human condition.
But we alone are similarly inflamed.
The body holds the brunt of the pain, masks what you aren’t yet able to feel, stores the trauma and the confusion, perpetuates the patterns, and you (we) go’round again and again and again.
The possibility of change begins within,